April 25th is the big day that we find out the sex of the baby. In the past week or so I have become SO totally, overwhelming, annoyingly impatient. I'm ready to know..is this baby an Archer or a Laela?? I NEED to know.
With Xander, by fluke, we found out he was a boy at 14 weeks. Which means that at this point, I had already known for almost 3 weeks. The suspense is killing me!
Every time I go to any store that happens to have a baby section, of course I have to browse. I've been good and only bought one onesie so far, which happens to be light green and could work for either sex. It says "Can I get any cuter?". I may be getting ahead of myself assuming that this child's cuteness level will be unmeasurable, but I have a feeling that if he/she looks anything like his/her brother, he/she is going to be gorgeous! And, I could have just avoided a total of three words and three slashes if I knew the sex already!
We've got a little bit less than a month and then we'll know. I'm so excited to see our little one in 3D/4D and get some good pictures and a DVD to send to Daddy. It's going to be awesome. But more than just that day, I'm excited to be able to start getting things ready for this baby. I'm excited to be able to refer to this little one by name. I'm excited to mail off Robert's "It's A..." package. I'm excited to reach my half way mark of this pregnancy with a healthy little bundle that is on his or her way to meeting a family that cannot wait to hold, kiss, hug, and love him/her!
Hoping for a "her" btw! But happy with either, no doubt!
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
30 Days of Me-Day 26 *3-29-11*
I am determined to finish this challenge. And maybe once I complete it, I can start on another blogging challenge and actually keep up with it.
Day 26: Your week, in great detail
Today is March 29th so the last week would have began on March 22nd. Off the top of my head I can't think of anything uber-exciting that has happened in the past week but maybe once I begin wracking my brain (and possibly facebook stalking myself), I will come up with something.
March 22
The weather was pretty nice. We spent a lot of time outside playing in the back yard. While we were outside we heard the door bell ring. It was a guy delivering purple tulips to me that my hubby had sent to congratulate me on finishing school. Then my mom kept the baby while I went and hung out with a friend. We spent most of our afternoon trying to track down our other friends that were visiting from VA, and finally caught up with them later on in the evening. We thought we had dinner plans with them, but the next day was going to work out better for them and neither of us had gotten that message yet, which explains why we continuously hounded them throughout the day. lol. Our friend Ryan came to dinner with us, although he had already eaten (he just had a couple beers and spent time with us) and his wife met up with us after she got done dress shopping with his sister. We all hung out for a little while and had a good time. Before bed I checked to see if my grades had posted and found out I got a C+ in both my final classes. Not as good as an A but I wasn't expecting a lot of what I dealt with during this last block of classes, and so I was just happy to know I had passed.
March 23
Mom, Xander, and I headed to Huntington as soon as we got up and dressed to get him a new stroller. Our nice one for him is in storage in VA and the one mom has here for him just isn't cutting it anymore. We ended up getting him a nice one and he also came out of there with a Spongebob lawn chair and a Spongebob shovel. Any idea who his favorite cartoon character is? He ended up screaming relentlessly for the entire 45 minute-1 hour car ride home which was not pleasant but we finally made it. We had plans to do lunch with some friends, but he ended up napping so I went alone. I met two of my girlfriends for lunch at Bob Evans. After that I came home and we played outside a bit because it was nice out again and we spent the rest of the afternoon/evening just lounging around the house. Around 7pm I went to Subway to get Xander and I some dinner (veggie pizza for him, BMT for me) and then once he went to bed I watched Teen Mom from the night before, emailed back and forth with the hubs, and enjoyed my sub. A hail storm hit just after I went to bed. It was pretty intense but it didn't last long.
March 24
I woke up really wanting stuffed pancakes. Around 11am I decided to attempt making my own. I made normal pancakes and mixed cream cheese and blueberry yogurt for the filling. Maybe I just really wanted them or maybe they were truly good, but I found them delicious. lol. I got an email from the hubs saying he finally got mail (he hadn't received any of his mail so far this deployment). He got 9 packages and one card all at once. He said everyone was jealous and he felt like it was Christmas. It made me feel like a good wifey. Xander and I took an afternoon nap. After that I stuck him in the shower with me and shaved my legs. When my mom got home from work, we got ready and went to Xander's swim lessons. My MIL came to see him that night too, which was nice. He ended up fussing throughout his swim class but I suppose you'll have that sometimes. We came home, ate dinner, and went to bed.
March 25
The first part of the day was uneventful. Xander and I lounged and watched cartoons. We played and just did our normal mommy-baby thing for a while. More than likely, I napped when he did. lol. After his nap I got him dressed and his bags packed to go stay the night at his grandmas. I took him over there around 4:30. After switching out the car seat and setting up his pack n play, I headed out. Usually he cries unless we distract him and I sneak out but this time he gave me a kiss, then blew me a kiss, and said bye. He's growing up. Then my mom, aunt, and I headed to Chillicothe to go shopping and eat at Red Lobster. I got some scrapbooking stuff from Hobby Lobby and a couple things for Xander at Kohl's. I was IN LOVE with some of their baby stuff and wanted to get some of it so bad but I have to wait a few more weeks until we know the sex. Dinner was delicious and we spent most of the time talking about my Nanny (their mom) and her life. I'm working on an idea for a book about her and it was so fun and inspiring to hear stories about her and all the inter-workings of my family.
March 26
I slept in a little bit because Xander was at his grandmas. I went to pick him up around noon. When I got home a friend of mine texted me and asked if we wanted to go to the mall. Xander had just laid down for a nap so I told her I'd love to but we'd have to wait. While we were waiting, we decided it would possibly be better to go sans kids so we could actually get some shopping done. So when my mom got home from work around 4, I left Xander with her and headed to pick my friend up. She left her daughter with her hubby and we headed to Ashland to the mall. I got fitted for a bra and discovered I was a 40DD. Whoa! I was wearing a 38D. So, I bought a couple bras. She got some clothes for her little girl and an outfit for her hubs. Then we went to Ruby Tuesday for dinner and headed home. I felt pampered..two girl's nights in a row! lol.
March 27
We woke up to snow. It made me very angry. lol. Our weather lately has been crazy. 75 degrees one day, hail storms and tornadoes the next, snow the next. Of course we couldn't do much playing outside and Xander was really upset about that. I wish it would warm up and stay there because he's totally an outdoorsman! We took him to my aunt's house so she could trim his hair. We wanted to get it off his collar and out of his eyes but we still kept it kinda long. He looks too cute! Then we went to Walmart and got our WIC stuff and a few other groceries. We came back home, he napped, and we just hung out for the evening. Then after he went to bed, I ran to Walmart again with my friend to check out/price some stuff for our upcoming camping trip (which I am dreading btw..totally not a fan of camping but I'm a good friend and it's one of my besties' birthday wish. lol). Came home, emailed Robert, and went to bed.
March 28
Xander had a doctor's appointment at 11:30 so we got up, got showered, and headed to that. Right before we left I got a package from Robert with a DVD, a magnet from Haifa, Israel, and a hoodie with his ship's insignia on it. Xander's appointment went good--we were just getting him set up with a doctor here. He was SO good at the doctor. He played well, didn't fuss, and kept insisting on sharing with the other kids. When we came home, I laid Xander down for a nap and laid down myself but my nap didn't go too well. Before I laid down I watched the DVD Robert sent which was so cute! He was reading a book to Xander and just talking to me..he had me laughing and then crying. I miss that man. I woke up feeling like I hadn't rested at all. That evening I went to a writing class at the local library. They have one each Monday for a 4 week period and I missed the first class but this was the second one I attended. It was extremely interesting. I had a really good time and learned a few things about how to develop a concept and write a page-turner. I got home and spent the rest of the evening playing and watching Spongebob with Xander. We also watched the DVD from Robert again and he really enjoyed seeing Daddy. My friend came over and we ordered some stuffed crust pizza from Pizza Hut and watched some Ax Men on netflix. It was a good night.
March 29
Today! So far not much has gone on. I was hoping to sleep in because I haven't had a chance to in a while, but my mom had errands to run and woke me when the baby woke up. My brother called and we got on yahoo messenger so we could webcam chat with him. He really misses Xander (and me too! lol) and we truly miss him. It was nice to be able to do that and now that he's got internet we're going to do it more often. I got a short email from Robert saying the internet access was sketchy and he just wanted to let me know he loved me. I'm so thankful he takes a few minutes here and there to check in with me and let me know he's okay when he knows he might not be able to for a while. He's a good hubby. After my mom got back, I ran down to the BMV to get my out-of-state inspection. I ordered my out-of-state title a few weeks ago and I'm impatiently waiting for it to arrive because I need it to register my car here and my registration expires in..2 days! I called to see if the title department had received it and they hadn't so..here's hoping for tomorrow! We bundled Xander up and let him play outside for a while after I got back but it's SO cold out there that we didn't stay long. I can't wait for it to warm up again so we can take our afternoon walks and let him run around out there. Now he's napping and I'm on here..thinking about napping myself but not sure I'll have the time now. So far, no plans for tonight but I guess we shall see what the future holds! lol.
*Special thanks to my social networking sites of choice: Facebook and Plurk. Without which I would have not been able to remember what I did farther back than yesterday. lol.*
Hope this week has gone well for all of you as well!
Day 26: Your week, in great detail
Today is March 29th so the last week would have began on March 22nd. Off the top of my head I can't think of anything uber-exciting that has happened in the past week but maybe once I begin wracking my brain (and possibly facebook stalking myself), I will come up with something.
March 22
The weather was pretty nice. We spent a lot of time outside playing in the back yard. While we were outside we heard the door bell ring. It was a guy delivering purple tulips to me that my hubby had sent to congratulate me on finishing school. Then my mom kept the baby while I went and hung out with a friend. We spent most of our afternoon trying to track down our other friends that were visiting from VA, and finally caught up with them later on in the evening. We thought we had dinner plans with them, but the next day was going to work out better for them and neither of us had gotten that message yet, which explains why we continuously hounded them throughout the day. lol. Our friend Ryan came to dinner with us, although he had already eaten (he just had a couple beers and spent time with us) and his wife met up with us after she got done dress shopping with his sister. We all hung out for a little while and had a good time. Before bed I checked to see if my grades had posted and found out I got a C+ in both my final classes. Not as good as an A but I wasn't expecting a lot of what I dealt with during this last block of classes, and so I was just happy to know I had passed.
March 23
Mom, Xander, and I headed to Huntington as soon as we got up and dressed to get him a new stroller. Our nice one for him is in storage in VA and the one mom has here for him just isn't cutting it anymore. We ended up getting him a nice one and he also came out of there with a Spongebob lawn chair and a Spongebob shovel. Any idea who his favorite cartoon character is? He ended up screaming relentlessly for the entire 45 minute-1 hour car ride home which was not pleasant but we finally made it. We had plans to do lunch with some friends, but he ended up napping so I went alone. I met two of my girlfriends for lunch at Bob Evans. After that I came home and we played outside a bit because it was nice out again and we spent the rest of the afternoon/evening just lounging around the house. Around 7pm I went to Subway to get Xander and I some dinner (veggie pizza for him, BMT for me) and then once he went to bed I watched Teen Mom from the night before, emailed back and forth with the hubs, and enjoyed my sub. A hail storm hit just after I went to bed. It was pretty intense but it didn't last long.
March 24
I woke up really wanting stuffed pancakes. Around 11am I decided to attempt making my own. I made normal pancakes and mixed cream cheese and blueberry yogurt for the filling. Maybe I just really wanted them or maybe they were truly good, but I found them delicious. lol. I got an email from the hubs saying he finally got mail (he hadn't received any of his mail so far this deployment). He got 9 packages and one card all at once. He said everyone was jealous and he felt like it was Christmas. It made me feel like a good wifey. Xander and I took an afternoon nap. After that I stuck him in the shower with me and shaved my legs. When my mom got home from work, we got ready and went to Xander's swim lessons. My MIL came to see him that night too, which was nice. He ended up fussing throughout his swim class but I suppose you'll have that sometimes. We came home, ate dinner, and went to bed.
March 25
The first part of the day was uneventful. Xander and I lounged and watched cartoons. We played and just did our normal mommy-baby thing for a while. More than likely, I napped when he did. lol. After his nap I got him dressed and his bags packed to go stay the night at his grandmas. I took him over there around 4:30. After switching out the car seat and setting up his pack n play, I headed out. Usually he cries unless we distract him and I sneak out but this time he gave me a kiss, then blew me a kiss, and said bye. He's growing up. Then my mom, aunt, and I headed to Chillicothe to go shopping and eat at Red Lobster. I got some scrapbooking stuff from Hobby Lobby and a couple things for Xander at Kohl's. I was IN LOVE with some of their baby stuff and wanted to get some of it so bad but I have to wait a few more weeks until we know the sex. Dinner was delicious and we spent most of the time talking about my Nanny (their mom) and her life. I'm working on an idea for a book about her and it was so fun and inspiring to hear stories about her and all the inter-workings of my family.
March 26
I slept in a little bit because Xander was at his grandmas. I went to pick him up around noon. When I got home a friend of mine texted me and asked if we wanted to go to the mall. Xander had just laid down for a nap so I told her I'd love to but we'd have to wait. While we were waiting, we decided it would possibly be better to go sans kids so we could actually get some shopping done. So when my mom got home from work around 4, I left Xander with her and headed to pick my friend up. She left her daughter with her hubby and we headed to Ashland to the mall. I got fitted for a bra and discovered I was a 40DD. Whoa! I was wearing a 38D. So, I bought a couple bras. She got some clothes for her little girl and an outfit for her hubs. Then we went to Ruby Tuesday for dinner and headed home. I felt pampered..two girl's nights in a row! lol.
March 27
We woke up to snow. It made me very angry. lol. Our weather lately has been crazy. 75 degrees one day, hail storms and tornadoes the next, snow the next. Of course we couldn't do much playing outside and Xander was really upset about that. I wish it would warm up and stay there because he's totally an outdoorsman! We took him to my aunt's house so she could trim his hair. We wanted to get it off his collar and out of his eyes but we still kept it kinda long. He looks too cute! Then we went to Walmart and got our WIC stuff and a few other groceries. We came back home, he napped, and we just hung out for the evening. Then after he went to bed, I ran to Walmart again with my friend to check out/price some stuff for our upcoming camping trip (which I am dreading btw..totally not a fan of camping but I'm a good friend and it's one of my besties' birthday wish. lol). Came home, emailed Robert, and went to bed.
March 28
Xander had a doctor's appointment at 11:30 so we got up, got showered, and headed to that. Right before we left I got a package from Robert with a DVD, a magnet from Haifa, Israel, and a hoodie with his ship's insignia on it. Xander's appointment went good--we were just getting him set up with a doctor here. He was SO good at the doctor. He played well, didn't fuss, and kept insisting on sharing with the other kids. When we came home, I laid Xander down for a nap and laid down myself but my nap didn't go too well. Before I laid down I watched the DVD Robert sent which was so cute! He was reading a book to Xander and just talking to me..he had me laughing and then crying. I miss that man. I woke up feeling like I hadn't rested at all. That evening I went to a writing class at the local library. They have one each Monday for a 4 week period and I missed the first class but this was the second one I attended. It was extremely interesting. I had a really good time and learned a few things about how to develop a concept and write a page-turner. I got home and spent the rest of the evening playing and watching Spongebob with Xander. We also watched the DVD from Robert again and he really enjoyed seeing Daddy. My friend came over and we ordered some stuffed crust pizza from Pizza Hut and watched some Ax Men on netflix. It was a good night.
March 29
Today! So far not much has gone on. I was hoping to sleep in because I haven't had a chance to in a while, but my mom had errands to run and woke me when the baby woke up. My brother called and we got on yahoo messenger so we could webcam chat with him. He really misses Xander (and me too! lol) and we truly miss him. It was nice to be able to do that and now that he's got internet we're going to do it more often. I got a short email from Robert saying the internet access was sketchy and he just wanted to let me know he loved me. I'm so thankful he takes a few minutes here and there to check in with me and let me know he's okay when he knows he might not be able to for a while. He's a good hubby. After my mom got back, I ran down to the BMV to get my out-of-state inspection. I ordered my out-of-state title a few weeks ago and I'm impatiently waiting for it to arrive because I need it to register my car here and my registration expires in..2 days! I called to see if the title department had received it and they hadn't so..here's hoping for tomorrow! We bundled Xander up and let him play outside for a while after I got back but it's SO cold out there that we didn't stay long. I can't wait for it to warm up again so we can take our afternoon walks and let him run around out there. Now he's napping and I'm on here..thinking about napping myself but not sure I'll have the time now. So far, no plans for tonight but I guess we shall see what the future holds! lol.
*Special thanks to my social networking sites of choice: Facebook and Plurk. Without which I would have not been able to remember what I did farther back than yesterday. lol.*
Hope this week has gone well for all of you as well!
Thursday, March 24, 2011
I'm a bad, bad blogger.
Wow, it has seriously been months upon months since I've been on here. So much for that 30 day challenge that I started 7 months ago. How shameful!
Well, of course there is plenty to catch up on and 5 more days of my challenge to complete (I WILL complete it, come hell or high water).
Without going into great detail (perhaps details later), here are the major updates so far:
1. I'm expecting again. Long story short, I asked my doctor for permission to go ahead and try as soon as I felt my body was heeled. We conceived 3 weeks after my miscarriage and I am now almost 16 weeks pregnant.
2. Robert is currently on deployment #2. We've almost reached the half-way mark. Due to so many things going on right now, his mission was changed and they've been involved in some really intense stuff but we're staying positive and I'm SO proud!
3. I'm currently living in Ohio with my mom. We moved out of our apartment in VA so I could live here and save money while he was gone. We'll be back in VA this summer and are keeping our fingers crossed that military housing can give us the place we want!
4. Xander is growing like a weed. He'll be 2 in less than 3 months. It makes me both extremely happy and very sad at the same time. My baby is a little boy. Spongebob "Bob" is his favorite thing on earth, he LOVES looking at pictures of Daddy and sending him kisses, he says around 25 words now, and he's enrolled in his first swim class (and loving it!). Every day he surprises me with how amazing he is..even in light of those terrible two moments! lol.
5. I just graduated college! I finished my last classes on March 20th and completed my Associate's degree in Psychology. With moving, transferring, taking some time off, etc. it took me a little longer than expected but I'm so happy to be done and feel that sense of accomplishment. However, I've realized psychology really isn't my passion and rediscovered something that is (that I've known all along)--writing. So now I'm trying to get some of my work out there and decide if/when/what for I'm going back for my bachelor's.
Well, interwebs folks, that is pretty much it. I will try to stay on top of things better now that I'm out of school. I find that when I don't get on my blog, I don't check others and I'm terribly sorry for that. I'll put forth more effort, I promise!
Well, of course there is plenty to catch up on and 5 more days of my challenge to complete (I WILL complete it, come hell or high water).
Without going into great detail (perhaps details later), here are the major updates so far:
1. I'm expecting again. Long story short, I asked my doctor for permission to go ahead and try as soon as I felt my body was heeled. We conceived 3 weeks after my miscarriage and I am now almost 16 weeks pregnant.
2. Robert is currently on deployment #2. We've almost reached the half-way mark. Due to so many things going on right now, his mission was changed and they've been involved in some really intense stuff but we're staying positive and I'm SO proud!
3. I'm currently living in Ohio with my mom. We moved out of our apartment in VA so I could live here and save money while he was gone. We'll be back in VA this summer and are keeping our fingers crossed that military housing can give us the place we want!
4. Xander is growing like a weed. He'll be 2 in less than 3 months. It makes me both extremely happy and very sad at the same time. My baby is a little boy. Spongebob "Bob" is his favorite thing on earth, he LOVES looking at pictures of Daddy and sending him kisses, he says around 25 words now, and he's enrolled in his first swim class (and loving it!). Every day he surprises me with how amazing he is..even in light of those terrible two moments! lol.
5. I just graduated college! I finished my last classes on March 20th and completed my Associate's degree in Psychology. With moving, transferring, taking some time off, etc. it took me a little longer than expected but I'm so happy to be done and feel that sense of accomplishment. However, I've realized psychology really isn't my passion and rediscovered something that is (that I've known all along)--writing. So now I'm trying to get some of my work out there and decide if/when/what for I'm going back for my bachelor's.
Well, interwebs folks, that is pretty much it. I will try to stay on top of things better now that I'm out of school. I find that when I don't get on my blog, I don't check others and I'm terribly sorry for that. I'll put forth more effort, I promise!
Friday, December 24, 2010
30 Days of Me-Day 25 *12-24-10*
First of all, Merry Christmas Eve to everyone! I hope you all have a wonderful Christmas and a Happy New Year filled with laughter, family, and friends.
Day 25: Your day, in great detail
Well, I had been putting off this post because I wanted to actually write about the day on the day, but I've come to terms with the fact that by the end of the day I'm just too tired to and too absent-minded to get on here and do it. lol. So, I'm going to write about a day in great detail, yesterday, to be exact.
I was awoke at 7 am to the phone ringing. It was someone from Robert's ship calling to check in. Yesterday was supposed to be a work day for him, but because he had duty today and would be there all day, they told him that he could take the day off. They call to basically make sure you're still alive and that they still have a small amount of control over your day.
He got up, but I stayed in bed until the baby woke up around 8. Actually, Robert came in and gave me some options: I could sleep in and then I'd have to take the baby to lunch with me while he moved boxes into storage, or I could get up while he moved stuff right then, and he'd be free to watch the baby while I went to lunch with a friend. I decided to get up then, because Xander's nap time would fall right around my lunch time and I'd rather him be at home so he could sleep.
Well, all that changed by 8:30 when someone from his ship called to tell him he had to come in. At 7, he was off for the day but by 8:30, they needed him. Of course we both accepted this graciously, with a few choice words and some eyerolls. He took a load over to the storage unit and headed in. (We're moving by the way..I probably should have said that earlier. I think I might have mentioned it before. He's deploying and I'm moving home to Ohio.)
At that point I decided to head to the mall to get a couple last minute gifts for Robert. I was going to wait and see if my friend wanted to go with me, but since I was now going to have the baby, I wanted to do it before lunch so we could come home for a nap right after. We went to the mall that we don't normally go to because it has a Fossil store and I wanted to get Robert's watch fixed for him. I also stopped by Barnes & Noble and got him one last book. **No worries, I am 100% certain he won't read this before tomorrow, if ever.** I got hit on at Barnes and Noble which was a story in itself.
I'm walking up and down the aisles searching for this book. I look up and see this guy staring at me. He says "Sup?" and I laugh inside. I didn't know people still said "sup" in face-to-face conversation. Well, let me rephrase that. I didn't know people still said it as a pick-up line. I thought to myself "he's probably just being nice and he hasn't got the 'sup' memo yet.." and I walked on. Well, I was right the first time to assume he was trying to be suave, because the second time I passed him he said "You're sexy as hell, you know that?" Okay..panic mode. I don't know what to do when someone hits on me. It doesn't happen often. And the use of the word "sexy" always throws me off. I haven't been sexy a day in my life. Cute, sometimes..pretty at best. Sexy, no. I don't even know how to be. lol. Secondly, I'm always blown away by how up-front people are. Even in my young and single days, which were very few, I would have never had the confidence to just approach a stranger and say something like that. And last but not least, I was pushing a toddler in a stroller..I thought that always threw guys off (I would hope the wedding band would too, but there's no guaranteeing he saw that). So, I just walked away as fast as possible. I probably should have at least said "thank you". lol. I mean, he seemed like a nice guy..cute, well-groomed, not creepy. I guess he just thought his lines were better than they were and probably wasn't expecting a married woman that doesn't know how to respond to come-ons aside from running in the other direction. lol.
So anyway, I got what I needed at the mall and headed to meet my friend for lunch. We had a nice lunch and I conned Xander into eating some vegetables by dipping them in ketchup. lol.
I laid Xander down for a nap around 3 and Robert got home around 3:30. We just hung out, watched TV, browsed the interwebs. lol. He decided he wanted to go out that night, so I texted my brother and invited him and his girlfriend. They had plans so we got a hold of one of Robert's friends from the ship and we met him and his girlfriend at Buffalo Wild Wings. We waited a little bit to be seated and a good while to actually get our food, but we had a great time. They loved how silly Xander is. Robert's friend kept saying "Is he always like so cool like this?" He did do great. No real fussy spells and he actually ate. We also kept giving him lemons, which he loves, but we were all almost in tears laughing at all his sour faces.
I drove home because Robert had a couple drinks. (Before we went in he said "Do you want me to drink so you can drive?" lol! He's too much sometimes.) We were all exhausted when we got home. We put Xander to bed and then spent some QT together--snuggled up in the bed watching The Office, per usual--before falling asleep.
So there you have it, my day in great detail. It was a pretty good day. =)
Day 25: Your day, in great detail
Well, I had been putting off this post because I wanted to actually write about the day on the day, but I've come to terms with the fact that by the end of the day I'm just too tired to and too absent-minded to get on here and do it. lol. So, I'm going to write about a day in great detail, yesterday, to be exact.
I was awoke at 7 am to the phone ringing. It was someone from Robert's ship calling to check in. Yesterday was supposed to be a work day for him, but because he had duty today and would be there all day, they told him that he could take the day off. They call to basically make sure you're still alive and that they still have a small amount of control over your day.
He got up, but I stayed in bed until the baby woke up around 8. Actually, Robert came in and gave me some options: I could sleep in and then I'd have to take the baby to lunch with me while he moved boxes into storage, or I could get up while he moved stuff right then, and he'd be free to watch the baby while I went to lunch with a friend. I decided to get up then, because Xander's nap time would fall right around my lunch time and I'd rather him be at home so he could sleep.
Well, all that changed by 8:30 when someone from his ship called to tell him he had to come in. At 7, he was off for the day but by 8:30, they needed him. Of course we both accepted this graciously, with a few choice words and some eyerolls. He took a load over to the storage unit and headed in. (We're moving by the way..I probably should have said that earlier. I think I might have mentioned it before. He's deploying and I'm moving home to Ohio.)
At that point I decided to head to the mall to get a couple last minute gifts for Robert. I was going to wait and see if my friend wanted to go with me, but since I was now going to have the baby, I wanted to do it before lunch so we could come home for a nap right after. We went to the mall that we don't normally go to because it has a Fossil store and I wanted to get Robert's watch fixed for him. I also stopped by Barnes & Noble and got him one last book. **No worries, I am 100% certain he won't read this before tomorrow, if ever.** I got hit on at Barnes and Noble which was a story in itself.
I'm walking up and down the aisles searching for this book. I look up and see this guy staring at me. He says "Sup?" and I laugh inside. I didn't know people still said "sup" in face-to-face conversation. Well, let me rephrase that. I didn't know people still said it as a pick-up line. I thought to myself "he's probably just being nice and he hasn't got the 'sup' memo yet.." and I walked on. Well, I was right the first time to assume he was trying to be suave, because the second time I passed him he said "You're sexy as hell, you know that?" Okay..panic mode. I don't know what to do when someone hits on me. It doesn't happen often. And the use of the word "sexy" always throws me off. I haven't been sexy a day in my life. Cute, sometimes..pretty at best. Sexy, no. I don't even know how to be. lol. Secondly, I'm always blown away by how up-front people are. Even in my young and single days, which were very few, I would have never had the confidence to just approach a stranger and say something like that. And last but not least, I was pushing a toddler in a stroller..I thought that always threw guys off (I would hope the wedding band would too, but there's no guaranteeing he saw that). So, I just walked away as fast as possible. I probably should have at least said "thank you". lol. I mean, he seemed like a nice guy..cute, well-groomed, not creepy. I guess he just thought his lines were better than they were and probably wasn't expecting a married woman that doesn't know how to respond to come-ons aside from running in the other direction. lol.
So anyway, I got what I needed at the mall and headed to meet my friend for lunch. We had a nice lunch and I conned Xander into eating some vegetables by dipping them in ketchup. lol.
I laid Xander down for a nap around 3 and Robert got home around 3:30. We just hung out, watched TV, browsed the interwebs. lol. He decided he wanted to go out that night, so I texted my brother and invited him and his girlfriend. They had plans so we got a hold of one of Robert's friends from the ship and we met him and his girlfriend at Buffalo Wild Wings. We waited a little bit to be seated and a good while to actually get our food, but we had a great time. They loved how silly Xander is. Robert's friend kept saying "Is he always like so cool like this?" He did do great. No real fussy spells and he actually ate. We also kept giving him lemons, which he loves, but we were all almost in tears laughing at all his sour faces.
I drove home because Robert had a couple drinks. (Before we went in he said "Do you want me to drink so you can drive?" lol! He's too much sometimes.) We were all exhausted when we got home. We put Xander to bed and then spent some QT together--snuggled up in the bed watching The Office, per usual--before falling asleep.
So there you have it, my day in great detail. It was a pretty good day. =)
Saturday, December 18, 2010
I'm just waiting.
I know it has taken me forever to do this 30 Day Challenge. It's been a few months since I started, which is really depressing that I can't even keep up with something for a month straight. I've noticed as an adult that I feel dumber than I used to as a teen. lol. It might sound funny, but I'm serious. I know I'm intelligent, but I'm oh so scatter-brained and forgetful. I've always been a procrastinator but I've realized that I have no amount of self-starter in myself and it makes me a little mad. I used to feel like I could do anything I put my mind to and that my mind was a wonderful thing. Now I just feel like it's just kind of there..getting me through each day. I'm in school, but I need to figure out something else to do to apply myself. It's extremely sad when I can't even complete a task that is supposed to be fun. I feel like I'm just going through the motions. Don't get me wrong, I love my life..I just wish I valued my personality and my talents as much as I used to. I feel like..jello. Just jello. J-e-l-l-o. It's alive.
Anyway, I need to do something in order to light a fire under my own tail and finish the things I've started. This blog holds little importance in my life but writing is something I love to do. I should put more time into it.
I know the next daily challenge is for me to write about my day in detail. Now I'm just waiting for a day that's worth writing about. Oh, I've had them, for sure. But, it seems like the only time I remember this is on days that I've just been sitting here at the apartment, cleaning, doing homework, changing diapers and filling up sippy cups. I don't want to write about a different day, because, well..that would be lying. lol. So, hopefully I can catch myself on an exciting day and get through the next part of this challenge so I can complete it..and then possibly start another one with a bit more gusto.
Anyway, I need to do something in order to light a fire under my own tail and finish the things I've started. This blog holds little importance in my life but writing is something I love to do. I should put more time into it.
I know the next daily challenge is for me to write about my day in detail. Now I'm just waiting for a day that's worth writing about. Oh, I've had them, for sure. But, it seems like the only time I remember this is on days that I've just been sitting here at the apartment, cleaning, doing homework, changing diapers and filling up sippy cups. I don't want to write about a different day, because, well..that would be lying. lol. So, hopefully I can catch myself on an exciting day and get through the next part of this challenge so I can complete it..and then possibly start another one with a bit more gusto.
Monday, December 6, 2010
That was short-lived. =(
Well, I have to say this post isn't going to be nearly as happy and exciting as the last. I found out on Thursday that we lost the baby. =( I'm completely heartbroken and just confused. But, at the same time I am not discouraged. I am trying to let go and let God. I know there is some kind of plan, some kind of reason that I am here where I am now. And, although I may not ever truly know what that reason is, I will put my faith in the reason itself and move forward.
On Tuesday I began having some brown discharge. I didn't think too much of it..brown means old and no worries, right? Well that night I noticed a little red blood on the toilet paper. I went straight in to the ER. Knowing I may have low progesterone (because I did with Xander) and I hadn't been able to see the doctor yet (boo on military docs) so I wasn't on a supplement, I was immediately fearful that something was wrong. The pelvic exam showed nothing out of the ordinary and neither did the ultra sound although it didn't show any sign of baby. The docs said that was normal for where I was at in the pregnancy. My hcg levels were at a 54.
On Wednesday, the bleeding and cramping got worse and it was as if I started a normal period. I ended up back in the ER that night, we repeated the process minus the blood tests and the doc said he just couldn't tell me at that point. My cervix was closed but that didn't mean I hadn't already lost the baby or that I wouldn't. I had an appointment scheduled for Friday to check the hcg again but they didn't want me to wait until then, so I was told to come back in Thursday to the ER and get it redone. I did, and that's when I found out my levels were down to a 24. =(
I kept my appointment Friday. Another pelvic exam, another ultrasound. Everything looked "okay" although it wasn't okay in my eyes. My uterus and everything looks healthy, so on the brightside it seems as though I will be able to get through it naturally and not require a DNC. I have to go back in on this coming Friday for one more blood test to make sure my levels are at a 0.
I've had a few days of extreme pain and a lot of bleeding but I think it's finally coming to an end. I can't say the emotional effects will be so quick to disappear. But, I am remaining strong and positive. This is extremely hard, considering my husband left the morning of the day we found out and won't be back for another week. But, we'll make it through. And, we're planning to begin trying again as soon as we can. We believe we'll be blessed with another child in the future, but a piece of our hearts will always remain with this one.
We have been so blessed with the son that we do have and he's truly brightened each day since this has happened. I don't know what I'd do without that sweet face. So many friends and family members have reached out to us and it's been heart-warming. Although the pain cannot be taken away and the reality cannot be changed, it is nice to know people are thinking of us and praying for us and it truly helps get through times like these.
I'm sorry to anyone who has ever experienced a loss like this. No one should have to give up hopes and dreams of a future with the perfect little expression of their love. My heart is with anyone who has felt this or a loss later in pregnancy or, Heaven forbid, the loss of a child. I hope you will join me in knowing that there is a reason to go on and something wonderful for us up ahead. <3
On Tuesday I began having some brown discharge. I didn't think too much of it..brown means old and no worries, right? Well that night I noticed a little red blood on the toilet paper. I went straight in to the ER. Knowing I may have low progesterone (because I did with Xander) and I hadn't been able to see the doctor yet (boo on military docs) so I wasn't on a supplement, I was immediately fearful that something was wrong. The pelvic exam showed nothing out of the ordinary and neither did the ultra sound although it didn't show any sign of baby. The docs said that was normal for where I was at in the pregnancy. My hcg levels were at a 54.
On Wednesday, the bleeding and cramping got worse and it was as if I started a normal period. I ended up back in the ER that night, we repeated the process minus the blood tests and the doc said he just couldn't tell me at that point. My cervix was closed but that didn't mean I hadn't already lost the baby or that I wouldn't. I had an appointment scheduled for Friday to check the hcg again but they didn't want me to wait until then, so I was told to come back in Thursday to the ER and get it redone. I did, and that's when I found out my levels were down to a 24. =(
I kept my appointment Friday. Another pelvic exam, another ultrasound. Everything looked "okay" although it wasn't okay in my eyes. My uterus and everything looks healthy, so on the brightside it seems as though I will be able to get through it naturally and not require a DNC. I have to go back in on this coming Friday for one more blood test to make sure my levels are at a 0.
I've had a few days of extreme pain and a lot of bleeding but I think it's finally coming to an end. I can't say the emotional effects will be so quick to disappear. But, I am remaining strong and positive. This is extremely hard, considering my husband left the morning of the day we found out and won't be back for another week. But, we'll make it through. And, we're planning to begin trying again as soon as we can. We believe we'll be blessed with another child in the future, but a piece of our hearts will always remain with this one.
We have been so blessed with the son that we do have and he's truly brightened each day since this has happened. I don't know what I'd do without that sweet face. So many friends and family members have reached out to us and it's been heart-warming. Although the pain cannot be taken away and the reality cannot be changed, it is nice to know people are thinking of us and praying for us and it truly helps get through times like these.
I'm sorry to anyone who has ever experienced a loss like this. No one should have to give up hopes and dreams of a future with the perfect little expression of their love. My heart is with anyone who has felt this or a loss later in pregnancy or, Heaven forbid, the loss of a child. I hope you will join me in knowing that there is a reason to go on and something wonderful for us up ahead. <3
Friday, November 26, 2010
Dear hormones, I forgive you.
Yep, that's right. I'm no longer mad at my body. I see now that it wasn't playing tricks on me and that it had good reason to be doing the things it was doing.
You guessed it, I'm pregnant! Of course I thought there was a good possibility: the fact that we were actively trying and did the deed during my ovulation, the fact that my boobies were leaking, more frequent bathroom breaks, and a few sprinklings of nausea here and there. I didn't want to read too much into it, especially after taking one test that was negative. So, I waited until I was for sure late and tested the next day. I woke at 5am to pee as I had every day for almost a week and I couldn't wait until I was officially "up" for the day so I tested then. I loved seeing that word on the test: Pregnant.
After a couple of hours of excitement I fell back to sleep and thankfully Xander slept in a little bit that morning. Once we got up I got him all ready for his doctor's appointment and because if that appointment, Robert got off work early. Thankfully I didn't have to wait 12 hours to tell him like I did with Xander. He got home around noon and I let him know the great news. He was very excited but it didn't take long for the worry to set in. I'm due only a couple of weeks after he's set to return home from deployment. If history repeats itself, we won't have to worry about me going early (Xander hung in there until 40 weeks 6 days), but there's always the questions of what we're going to do leading up to the birth.
Xander and I are moving home to Ohio while Robert is deployed and it's certainly not the best idea to move 9 hours and try to set up an apartment when I'm 36-38 weeks along. So, the question is, would it be better for me to move here a month or two before he gets home and take the chance of me being alone when I got into labor (if I were to go early), or would it be better for me to remain in Ohio with plenty of people to help and Robert hope he gets the correct leave to come there for the birth and then us make the trip with a newborn back to Virginia?
He was stressed right away and I have to admit, it kind of upset me because I just wanted to revel in the happiness of it all. But, he's right. We have a lot to figure out before then. I know he's also probably just a little overwhelmed that now this dream of a baby is real and that means it's real that he's going to miss my growing belly, the first kicks, finding out the sex, baby showers and the lot of it. Not to mention the rumors that his deployment may be extended and that he may not be home to welcome our new addition into the world.
Although all of that is extremely stressful, overwhelming, and a bit sad, we're definitely excited to have another little one on the way! We couldn't be happier. We know another little baby will be a lot of work with our little ball of energy we've already got. But, we'll work it out. We've always wanted another little one and Xander will make an awesome big brother. I couldn't be more pleased or more blessed with my little family.
You guessed it, I'm pregnant! Of course I thought there was a good possibility: the fact that we were actively trying and did the deed during my ovulation, the fact that my boobies were leaking, more frequent bathroom breaks, and a few sprinklings of nausea here and there. I didn't want to read too much into it, especially after taking one test that was negative. So, I waited until I was for sure late and tested the next day. I woke at 5am to pee as I had every day for almost a week and I couldn't wait until I was officially "up" for the day so I tested then. I loved seeing that word on the test: Pregnant.
After a couple of hours of excitement I fell back to sleep and thankfully Xander slept in a little bit that morning. Once we got up I got him all ready for his doctor's appointment and because if that appointment, Robert got off work early. Thankfully I didn't have to wait 12 hours to tell him like I did with Xander. He got home around noon and I let him know the great news. He was very excited but it didn't take long for the worry to set in. I'm due only a couple of weeks after he's set to return home from deployment. If history repeats itself, we won't have to worry about me going early (Xander hung in there until 40 weeks 6 days), but there's always the questions of what we're going to do leading up to the birth.
Xander and I are moving home to Ohio while Robert is deployed and it's certainly not the best idea to move 9 hours and try to set up an apartment when I'm 36-38 weeks along. So, the question is, would it be better for me to move here a month or two before he gets home and take the chance of me being alone when I got into labor (if I were to go early), or would it be better for me to remain in Ohio with plenty of people to help and Robert hope he gets the correct leave to come there for the birth and then us make the trip with a newborn back to Virginia?
He was stressed right away and I have to admit, it kind of upset me because I just wanted to revel in the happiness of it all. But, he's right. We have a lot to figure out before then. I know he's also probably just a little overwhelmed that now this dream of a baby is real and that means it's real that he's going to miss my growing belly, the first kicks, finding out the sex, baby showers and the lot of it. Not to mention the rumors that his deployment may be extended and that he may not be home to welcome our new addition into the world.
Although all of that is extremely stressful, overwhelming, and a bit sad, we're definitely excited to have another little one on the way! We couldn't be happier. We know another little baby will be a lot of work with our little ball of energy we've already got. But, we'll work it out. We've always wanted another little one and Xander will make an awesome big brother. I couldn't be more pleased or more blessed with my little family.
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